Saturday, December 31, 2011



A year to be remembered in my books. It has been a year of change. Change in a good way.

  • The Packers won the Superbowl
- Honestly I could of cared less about football until they started getting good. Im a bad fan.

  • I went from an underclassmen to an upperclassman.
- Which means Im half way done with high school!
  • Got my 2nd black eye but 1st one I remember.
- Softball is a dangerous sport!
  • Got my drivers license!
-More opportunity for me to get into trouble.
  • Went on my first mission trip
-A life changing event!
  • Started dating Eric
-Sydney got some ginger competetion. My favorite gingers are handling it well.
  • I learned a lot about myself and grew as a person

I hope you all had a fabulous 2011

Here is to another great year!

Friday, December 30, 2011

5 Question Friday

1. What's the oldest piece of clothing in your closet?
Probably my Moms old wind pant suit. ha Sometimes I like pulling it out and wearing it just for a laugh. Its super comfy! I'm positive its older than me though.

2. How many random blog readers have you met?
Zero. Zip. Nada.

3. Do you let your kids stay up till midnight on New Years Eve? (Or, if you don't have kiddos yet, did you get to stay up until midnight as a child?)
I remember being little and watching the ball drop on TV in between my parents in bed. Not sure when that started but I was fairly young. 

4. What are the gas prices where you live?
 $3.25. Which is pretty cheap compared to prices recently.

5. What is one resolution that you know you should do but are too afraid to try?
Ummm....probably to stay in better shape and eat more healthy food. I know I'm young and shouldn't be worrying about that but I think its important to get into a good routine. One of these days all those calories are going to end up in my butt, gut or thighs. Not something I want to deal with!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Onion Rings

1)I love when people just get you. When they completely understand and don't judge you. I recently had one of those moments where you just kind of spill everything to someone. It felt good and was much needed!

2) Working out is over rated. Can someone get me a cheeseburger?

3) Since we are on the food topic. I have been craving onion rings recently! I have always hated them but something happened recently. Cheeseburger with a side of onion rings, please!

4) Yesterday while driving to the mall we were behind a white car. My friend Katie pointed out that the guys were wearing "Amish" hats. So she decided to follow them around in the very busy mall parking lot. She was right. They were wearing clothes that Amish people wear.

5) I'm sitting in the lobby of the community center and I just overheard this conversation.
Little boy: Can you swim?
Little girl: Of course I can swim! I am eight years old. I can do everything!

She has a lot to learn...

6) Im going ice skating today!

Well I'm off to go find me some onion rings and possibly a pack of gum. They leave your breath smelling wonderful!

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Chinese Food

Christmas has come and gone once again. Every year it seems to come and go faster and faster. I didn't even bake cookies or decorate this year! I just need to remind myself that Christmas is all about the birth of Christ and that alone should make me enjoy the day.

I had Christmas lunch at a truck stop on the way home from Chicago, a bowl of ice cream for dinner, and then ordered Chinese for a late night snack. Then I read an article that said "Its not Christmas unless you have a spiral cut ham on the table." Maybe next year?

Chicago was amazing though! I was there from Friday-Sunday. We had an awesome view from the12th floor of our hotel. I was within walking distance of five Starbucks. I really hope to live in a big city one day! I loved being able to go out and walk anywhere. Lots of different places to eat and lots of shopping! I have been to Chicago enough that I know my way around for the most part. Which made it even more fun.

I hope you all had an amazing Christmas!

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Merry Christmas

"Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign: The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel."
-Isaiah 7:14

Merry Christmas!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Christmas Break

Christmas break is finally here! I'm so grateful for this much needed break. We also finally got some snow! It was a light dusting but still snow! About time. I live in Wisconsin for goodness sake. Snow is our middle name. Well, not really, but you know what I mean.

My family and I are heading to Chicago for Christmas. I'm really excited! I love the big city and I love crowds during the holiday season. Perfect combination. Maybe it will snow in Chicago and I will get a white christmas!

Well, Im heading off to go see New Years Eve.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Illegal u-turn

I have had an interesting weekend. It began with having a Christmas party at my house. We exchanged gifts, ate ice cream, watched a few movies, and did typical girl things. ha It was fun.

Then on Saturday on my way to work my Mothers car decides to stop working on the high way. My Daddy came to my rescue. He made an illegal u-turn on the high way and had a cop follow him to me. He just got a warning and everything ended up okay!

The view in my rear view mirror was one I never wanted to see again.

That same day I had my Moms family Christmas. I LOVE my family. I laughed so much with them. Apparently my Uncle and his girlfriend of 10 years are finally getting married next December. About time! I forget they aren't married. I'm looking forward to the wedding. Solely for the reception. My family knows how to party! ha

I then crashed on Andreas couch watching Friday Night Lights. We are heading to a football party tomorrow. Go Packers!

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Study hall

This semester I didnt have any classes with 2 of my best friends. It really forced me to go out of my comfort zone and talk with people I dont normally talk with. Then 6 hour study hall came along!
It is my favorite time of day! I have so much fun at our table! We do mad libs on Drew's iPad, play with a talking Kitten, also on Drew's iPad. Its also gossip central which isn't always a good thing but its interesting. The only bad thing about that study hall is that I get nothing done!

Ive gotten to know my classmates in ways I would not have. I'm going to miss this study hall next semester. I'm kind of dreading next semester already even though it means I get to have more classes with friends.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011


I have many memories of riding in the car with my Dad while listening to country music. He loved country music and still does. I could care less about music back then. Around 6th grade I started getting into music. Mainly country because that's what I grew up with. Apparently country music isn't what the 'cool' kids listened to so I stopped listening to country and went to pop. Every once in a while I would listen to country music but would always let peer pressure steer me towards pop music. Somehow over the years my ipod has more country songs then anything other genre though.

So here is my confession.....I LOVE country music. Even if none of the cool kids like it. I love it so much that during study hall I listen to country music on my laptop. Chelsey(my country music loving buddy!) and I work better with background music!

Easy- Rascal Flatts

The truth is
That I miss lyin' in those arms of his
But I don't ever let it show
I laugh and I act like
I'm having the time of my life
as far as he knows

I don't want this night to end- Luke Bryan

You got your hands up
You're rocking in my truck
You got the radio on
You're singing every song
I'm set on cruise control

I need you- Tim McGraw

I need you
Like a lighthouse on the coast
Like the father and the son needs the holy ghost
I need you

She let herself go- George Strait

He wondered how she'd take it when he said goodbye
Thought she might do some cryin' lose some sleep at night
But he had no idea when he hit the road
That without him in her life she'd let herself go
Let herself go on a single's cruise to Vegas once then to Honolulu
Let herself go to New York City
A week at the spa came back knocked out pretty
When he said he didn't love her no more she let herself go

Somethin' bout a truck- Kip Moore

Something about a girl in a red sundress
With an ice cold beer pressed against her lips
In that farmer's field, will make a boy a man
Something about a girl in a red sundress

Tattoos on this town- Jason Aldean

There's still black marks on that county road,
where we drag raced our pick ups, and mustangs
And weathered on the summer rain
And to this day up on that overpass,
even underneath the new paint,
you can still see, Allie will you marry me?

Crazy Girl- Eli Young Band

Crazy girl, don't you know that I love you?
I wouldn't dream of going nowhere
Silly woman come here let me hold you
Have I told you lately I love you like crazy, girl?

All of these songs have a similar theme but still are completely different. They have the cutest lyrics! Seriously, I think if you listen to these songs you might start liking country a bit more...

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Fridges and Twitter

Watching Friday Night Lights, drinking Starbucks, and blogging. I love weekends in which I have no real plan. This has been the case for the past two weeks. I love it! ha I'm such a homebody.

In other news, I'm almost done Christmas shopping! I only have one more person to buy for. Which has not been easy. I have no idea what to get him! Any suggestions on what to get a 19 year old guy?

Did you know you can buy a fridge with wifi? You can apparently tweet from your fridge or listen to Pandora. All while getting crushed ice! ha  Who ever thought that would be a good idea?

See, I wasnt kidding!

Friday, December 9, 2011

5 Question Friday

1. What is your favorite Christmas cookie?
I'm not a cookie fan! But if I must choose I would go with sugar cookies. I remember making them with my friend Alicia when I was like 6 and all I can remember about that experience was that the cookie dough was AMAZING!

2. What's your favorite holiday movie & why?
I think its a tie between How the Grinch Stole Christmas and Elf.

3. Is there a gift that you bought for your kids that you wish you hadn't after they opened it?

No kids for this one.

4. What is the messiest room in your house right at this moment?
I'm thinking its a tie between my sisters room, her play room, and the family room. Both of which my sister has decided to make her own. They are full of crap toys. My room on the other hand is spotless......

5. What is the furthest you have driven for the holidays?
According to mapquest my Aunts house in Idaho is 1467.62 miles away from my house. Man, the drive did not seem that long! Then again I was in 3rd grade and I dont remember the drive very much.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

I have flaws.

"Consider how hard it is to change yourself and you'll understand what little chance you have in trying to change others" -Unknown

I love love love this quote!

I recently was complaining about one of my friends(dont worry it wasnt any of you who read my blog). I wanted her to stop acting the way she was and I was getting tired of trying to change her!

Then along came the quote above.

I have flaws. Just like everyone else. Trying to get rid of some of those flaws would be really difficult for me! So why would I think that trying to change someone else was going to work?

Really makes me look into the mirror at all of my flaws. A flaw of mine is judging others. Time to attempt to change that.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Sleeping on the floor

A week ago on Wednesday we had a half day! I'm not even sure why they wanted us to come to school any way. We had an hour and forty-five minute first hour class. Then watched a movie in the gym the rest of the day.

A bunch of us brought pillows and blankets to sleep on for the movie. During first hour however my friend Chelsey and I decided to take a nap on the spanish rooms floor. I was so comfortable! I only woke up a few times when my old spanish teacher(Im not in spanish anymore) would say "Shhh they are sleeping!" Then we got waken up by an announcement to get to the gym for the movie. So a dragged our blankets to the gym and crashed on the floor next to the whole school. We watched Facing the Giants.

This is one of the reasons why I love my school. What students are allowed to sleep on the floor during first hour?

Study hall person: Hi. (places clipboard on table) Im suppose to have you sign in and out when you leave study hall.
The table: Okay
Study hall: Can you just write some names and times real quick? I dont want them to think Im breaking the rules.

Friday, December 2, 2011

5 Question Friday

1. What is your favorite Christmas decoration in your house?
We have a felt calender that counts down the days till Christmas. I always loved changing the days when I was younger!

2. Do you finish your Christmas shopping early or are you a last minute type?
I'm the last minute type person. This year Ive been doing pretty good but I'm not completely done. I'm guessing Christmas eve will sneak up on me soon though.

3. When do you turn on your heat?
If it was up to me, the heat would of turned on the minute fall began. I hate being cold. My Mom controls the thermostat though meaning the heat is rarely turned on. Whenever I complain about being cold my mom says "Then put some clothes on" apparently my winter jacket and snow pants aren't considered clothing to her. ha

4. Do you ever wish your blog was private?
Yes, all the time! Sometimes I just want to vent without hurting someones feelings or speak my mind without offending someone.

5. Do you put your deodorant on before of after you put on your shirt?
Matters how much time I have. I dont really have a set time for puting on deodorant. It gets on eventually though.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Smart phone

I have finally joined the 'I own a smart phone group!' About time too. I'm in love...its become an addiction. Words with friends anyone?

I love my phone even more when it says on Wednesday and Thursday it will be around 40! Seriously, I'm normally the person that can not wait until we get snow! This year though I have to drive in it myself though. So it can hold off...forever. I'm enjoying my 40 degree November, thank you very much.


I'm wearing tights. I haven't worn tights since my Mom dressed me back in preschool. I hated those things and swore they would never touch my legs again! It only took me twelve years to get over my hatred towards tights.


I'm interviewing Father Dave sometime soon for my religions in america class. I don't remember ever talking to a catholic priest. I'm excited for some reason!

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Black Friday 2011

I'm going on year four of Black Friday shopping with my Mom! This year was a little different though. The weather was actually nice! Every other year it was sleeting, windy and cold! I liked the 45 degrees this year! Secondly, my Mom and I weren't alone. I kind of missed just her and I but it was fine. My sister wanted to go for the first time ever, Shannon wanted to go, and Zach just wanted a ride. So we added three more people. Which was fine. I got 4 pairs of new shoes which is crazy for me! I normally have 1-2 pairs I wear till they are worn out.

Every year is a bit different but I re-learn the same things. Maybe next year Ill actually remind myself of all these things.
  • The things I shop for will be there at 9,10, or even 11! No need to get up at 3am.
  • Don't get to attached to things because Mom will make you wait till Christmas before you can wear it.
  • You may be done shopping by 10 but don't think you have the rest of the day to do anything. You will crash the minute you get home.
  • You always will run into at least one person you know. So don't skip out on applying make-up and dressing descent.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving

Im thankful for......
My friends, who I couldnt imagine my life without!

This guy.

My sister who is as annoying as I once thought.

My parents who raised me.

Im of course thankful for so much more but I dont have pictures of it all! ha

Happy Thanksgiving!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Airforce vs. College

Ive been thinking about the future a lot lately. Im at the point in school where I go see college reps and Im constantly being told I need to start making some choices. I have two years till college and I have a feeling the next two years will fly by. When I was younger I loved planning my future. It was fun when I could dream about my plans and change them anytime I want. When I look back on past plans some of the goals I set for myself are still intack others have faded( I dont see myself having twelve children!).

Two plans Ive always had was to become a neonatal nurse or join the Airforce. It scares me to think that I need to make these decisions soon. I don't feel ready to take the next step. Ive been wishing for the day that I would graduate high school. At the moment I'm dreading it because it means I need to make decisions that will effect the rest of my life.

So I made a pro and con list!


  • No debt! They will pay for my college education
  • Free travel
  • I could get into the medical field
  • Ill be giving back to my country
  • I'm scared
  • 4 years of my life I will be in the military and another 4 after that in college to become a neonatal nurse. Ill be 25 when that's all done!


  • Accomplish my dream of becoming a neonatal nurse
  • Will only take 4 years and then I can begin my dream job
  • Debt! College is expensive

This list didnt even help me! Im doomed. Maybe Ill just become a hobo.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Breaking Dawn

Last night I went to see Breaking Dawn with my friend Andrea! It was a really good movie. I didnt like Bellas wedding dress though. Maybe because Ive been watching to much of Say Yes to the Dress. Other than that I think they did a fabulous job with the movie! I cant wait till the last movie comes out!

Speaking of weddings my friends sister got married on Saturday. It was at the courthouse so I didnt go. Its weird to think that her and I played with My Little Ponies in the back of the bus when we were younger. Now she is married. Life goes way to fast.

Friday, November 18, 2011

5 Question Friday

1. Do you have a go to song that always puts you in a good mood?
I don't have a specific song. It really matters what my favorite song at the moment is. It changes frequently.

2. Are you a real Christmas tree kinda person or do you go with a real fake one?
 I am a real Christmas tree kind person! Its tradition to go cut down our tree. One of my favorite parts about the holiday season.

3. What are you thankful for?
My family, my friends, good health, the ability to get a good education,etc.

4. Which fashion fad from the past do you wish you could wear today?
This is the best picture I could find. But I love the clothes from the 80s(at least most of it). Sweatshirts off the shoulder, leg warmers, neon colors, etc.

5. Do you wait until the "low fuel" light comes on before you fill up the gas tank?
No! I start freaking out when I have only half of a tank. Don't get me started when I only have a quarter or less left.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

What the future will bring

2009- Freshman Year

2010- Sophomore Year

2011- Junior Year

I have gone to three high school homecomings already. It's crazy how fast high school is going. As you can see through the homecoming pictures the people in our group shots have changed throughout the years. A lot like our paths in life will bring change for us all throughout the years/

In 10 or 20 years when I find these pictures I wonder what will come to my mind.
  • Will I remember all the fun I had or the drama that high school is full of?
  • Will I wonder where all these people are in life or will I still be part of their life?
A group of girls that I will forever cherish in my hearts. Girls that I have had so many amazing memories with and will hopefully continue to make many more.

  • Will I marry my plastic surgeon and will Syd marry her fire fighter?
  • Will we all follow our dreams?
  • Will we continue walking with the Lord?
  • Where will our life take us?
  • Who will all of these amazing girls marry?
  • I wonder if Sarah will get her gap between her teeth fixed or if Shannon will get a boob job.
  • How many of us will have gray hair?
It makes me sad to think of us all parting ways. Hopefully we stay in contact but I know a few of us might not. We all have different life plans and dreams. Dreams that will take some of us far away.

All you can do is appreciate the time we have left together.

Monday, November 14, 2011

I hate clubs

I joined a club recently.

 Its not a club that you want to be part of. Not a club you can sign up to be in. Its the kind of club that you don't truly understand until you are forced into it. A club where only the members really understand how horrible it feels to be part of this club. The club that so many people think they are apart of but really have no idea.

My sister has been dealing with things recently. Things that involve counseling, social services, and the police.

I don't feel its my right to go into details because its not my story to tell.

Ive joined the "My family has some serious problems" club.

I feel really alone even though I'm not. My Mom is staying strong for my sister.  My dad is trying to stay strong for her too. They both blame themselves. As if something they did caused this. Which leaves me trying to stay strong for the whole family.

So count your blessings next time you feel the need to complain about your family or your life in general. I didnt appreciate how normal my family was until it wasnt normal. You cant turn back the hands of time.

Sunday, November 13, 2011


Last night I gave my favorite waitress a tip that consisted of $1, a piece of gum, and a chocolate chip granola bar. She understood the meaning I was trying to get across. One day Ill make up for my lack of money. Until then Ill have to get more creative with my tipping.

We have also become regulars at the truckstop! She knows we come in late at night or early in the morning about once every week. Its exciting!

Yesterday was my schools auction. It was boring like always but the food was good! I didn't buy anything this year. But I did get a funny story out of it! My parents always give me their bidding number because I'm responsible with it! My friend Sarah was trying to convince her parents to give her their bidding number for the silent auction. They laughed and said "NO". Which makes a lot of sense because Sarah likes to spend money like crazy on stupid unnecessary things! Sarah and I eventually found out the bidding number. While I was checking on one of my items that I had bid on, Sarah decided to bid on something too! She bid $36 on a bucket of popcorn filled with 4 movie tickets. Lucky for her someone outbid her in the last 5 minutes of the auction. Well thats my story. Proof that Sarah will be in a massive amount of debt once she moves out and is in charge of her finances.

Friday, November 11, 2011


Today is 11/11/11.
Ive been waiting for this day for a long time!
I'm scheduling this post for it will be published at exactly 11:11am on 11/11/11.
Now on to less important things......
A quick conversation I had with my friend Shannon.

Shannon: You look like a pope when you wear your headband like that!
Me: Pope's don't wear anything resembling my headband on their head
Shannon: Yes they do! I'm Jewish I know these things unlike you!
Me: Jews have rabbi's not popes.
Shannon: What? Oh I mean....I knew that!
Me: And we go to the same church! I'm not Jewish or catholic.


I  was going to donate blood yesterday for the first time! I couldn't though because I went to Haiti this summer. I have a fear of needles too. Actually, its more of a fear of needles that touch me. I can watch someone get a shot or see someone get stitches easily. So I'm not disappointed that I couldn't do it.

You should donate blood though! Save a life. That's what convinced me to try and do it. It was also on my bucket list so I will have to do it eventually.


It's Friday, Friday Gotta get down on Friday.....

Sorry that was so six months ago! I still sing that line when someone mentions that it is Friday. Time to break that habit!

Moving on....
My friend Sarah will kill me once she realizes I have put this collage on my blog. It makes me laugh so my death will be worth it.
This picture makes me miss summer! The tank tops, lifest, my birthday, mosquito bites, and camping! Sydney gave me that sippy cup for my 15th birthday! It wasn't even my birthday yet so I was technically only fourteen in this picture. Time sure flies! This picture is another one that makes me laugh because of all the mosquito's bites I had! My friends don't even know why I got bit so many times. Maybe I should tell them...or not. Mysteries are fun!

By the way its 11/11/11 today!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011


I always love looking back at all my other blog posts about the music I was into at the time. I can only imagine in 10 years looking back and seeing how music has changed.

1.Oats We Sow- Gregory and the Hawk

2. Rush- Ferras

3. Play Hard- Midi Mafia

4. We Found Love- Rihanna

5. Words I Couldnt Say- Leighton Meester

6. Lay It On Me- Kelly Rowland

7. Paradise- Coldplay

8. Summer Girl- Leighton Meester

9. Little Miss- Sugarland

10. Oh Darling- Plug in Stereo

11. Bad- The Cab

12. Mr. Saxobeat- Alexandra Stan

Monday, November 7, 2011

You were right

One of my favorite books is To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee. My favorite quote from the book is "Don’t judge people, Scout, until you’ve worn that person’s skin and walked around in it for a while".

Some people express how the are feeling out loud.

Others keep it all inside.

A few post it online.

I never realized how how easy it is to put on a smile yet still be hurting on the inside. I never wanted to know how easy it was either. I once judged people who seemed to have a perfect life yet complained on twitter or in a blog post. Sometimes your life isn't how it seems to others.

 I learned that the hard way.

So to my friends who have wondered what the hell has been wrong with me lately. I'm not ready to share the details because I'm one to keep it all inside. But you were right something has been wrong. I could deny it all I want but that doesn't change things.

Sunday, November 6, 2011


My friend got in a little fender bender recently. I think my group of friends have the worst of luck when it comes to driving!  We all have different driving styles too. I'm considered the "boring safe" driver that has a great sense of direction. Shannon doesn't know what a break is! She tends to use it at the last possible moment. Chelsey likes going fast and randomly slamming on her breaks when I'm drinking something in the passenger seat. Sydney gets lost everywhere!

My friend Chelsey once rear-ended a cop car.

I ran into a fridge while pulling into the garage.

Sydney hit a car parked on the street while pulling out of her drive-way.

Shannon had a deer hit her on her way home.

See, I wasn't kidding. We have bad luck when it comes to cars! We do get some good laughs out of our mishaps though. And we have funny stories to tell others!

Friday, November 4, 2011


I looked up my name on urban dictionary. Some of the definitions are hilarious and others describe me perfectly!

"An awesome girl, very pretty, likes funny stuff ,hates guys who annoy her, mostly likes to be alone and likes technology. "
 I am pretty awesome. I like funny stuff. I don't exactly hate guys that annoy me but I do have a strong dislike for them. I actually do like being alone and I love technology.
"A person who turns your negativity and stigma into the opposite. Very attractive, sexy, considerate, adorable, hopeless romantic (but you should be too so its ok) humble and a perfectionist. Rae's have good insight and will always tell you the truth about anything whether you like it or not you were realize it was good or you and that they're right. This person will always make you a better person and you cannot help but to love everything about them, even the imperfection, they are just that great. A homie, lover, friend 100%."
I do tend to tell the truth whether you like it or not. I'm not very humble and I'm somewhat of a perfectionist.
"Rae is describing a girl that prefers sweats over skirts..jordans over high heels. Found at the club closest to the mirror with an eye on the black guys with the nice "swagga". Moody when things don't go her way but a good sales person. dark haired green eyed Mexican sounding girl. Only down for a party when its convenient for her schedule so time doesn't get taken from her playa rep."
I do like my sweats but I could pass on the jordans. I'm not a fan of black guys( at least not to date). Yes, I admit I do get moody when things don't go my way. I'm not a good sales person! Yea I don't have even a hint of Mexican in me. Im always down for a party!
"Basically a woman considered promiscuous."
This one made me laugh! Im not promiscuous at all!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011


On Sundays my friends uncle died. He left behind a little boy whose first birthday is 4 days away.

His girlfriend found him in the basement, laying on the ground covered in blood. He had overdosed on heroin and cracked his head open when he fell. Jeni found him alive and tried to save him. The EMT arrived and they tried to save him.

Drugs destroy families.

Jeni is now a single mom that has to raise a little boy. A little boy who's father died because of heroin. He was a good dad, he had a steady job, and a nice house. Doesnt sound like the typical heroin user I see on TV or hear about in the news. His family had no idea he has into heroin.

I don't understand why people feel the need to do drugs. To put everything on the line, just to get a high. He had no idea today would be his last day here on earth.

He could of easily been alive today.

This little boy will grow up not knowing his Dad.

 Drugs are not worth it.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

A little fuzzy

I haven't been myself lately. I'm not sure what triggered the change but I'm sure I could give a few guesses. I see my old self some days. Those days have come and go randomly a lot like a TV with an antenna. I just wish the TV would stop being so fuzzy.

Its times like these where I wish I was more open. Where I could tell anyone how I felt. Not that it would really help at the moment because I'm not even sure how I feel.

 My friends have been walking on egg shells around me lately. Everything they do I get pissed off at. Some of the things would drive me crazy any way (like there lack of responsibility) but other things that I normally would care less about is setting me off. My friends outside of school don't see a change in me. Most likely because I'm not different around them.

Other than that life is good! Outside of my school life I'm happy. I got back from Burlington, WI. I gained a few pounds because all I did was eat! My friends aunt owns a restaurant in Burlington. Then we stayed with a lady that insisted on taking us out every night! I tried paying once and it didn't work very well. We had a lot of down time too. Which I used to read a few books. I really miss reading and Ive been trying to get back into it.

This weekend went way to fast! Im hoping for a great week!

Friday, October 28, 2011

5 Question Friday

*I know I declared I was on a blogging break on Wednesday but I couldnt resist the urge. I think I have a problem.*
1. Do you prefer cotton, silk, or flannel sheets?
Cotton in the summer. Flannel in the winter. Both are from Target and under $20. So Im not picky about my sheets. Which is one reason I dont think Ill buy expensive sheets because I might see what Im missing and I cant afford them any way!

2. What time zone are you in?
Central. I feel like its dark all the time recently!

3. What is your favorite part of the holiday season?
Spending time with family you dont see very often! I also love the hustle and bustle of the holiday season. Most people hate the crowds when they shop but I love them(at least during the holidays). The food is amazing too! And the smells!

4. What is your favorite "wintry" drink? (It doesn't have to be an "alcoholic" drink!)
I love Starbucks holiday drinks! I dont even have a specific favorite because they are all so good!

5. In your opinion, what is the worst job in the world?
Stripper, prostitute,etc. I think those would be the worst jobs ever. I just cant imagine having a job like that. 

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Blogging Break

I'm off to Burlington....

Which means I'm taking a blogging break until I return!

I also have writers block so really Im just using my trip as an excuse.

I love 4 day weekends!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

6-7th graders

My sister had her whole volleyball team sleep over on Friday night. My chemistry teachers daughter is part of the team and so was my biology/ex-volleyball coach's daughter. The short 2 hours I was actually at home with them was a nightmare. I was upstairs and they were scheming downstairs. They were playing truth or dare. Many of the dares included me unfortunately.

 "Go upstairs and tell Rae her style is groovy" *giggle* (sound of nine girls running up the stairs) *giggle* "Your style is groovy!" *giggle* (girls all run down stairs)

It was the same thing over and over again except they would change up what they had to say to me. I even heard "Should we get her bra or underwear?" I put a stop to whatever they thought they were going to do with my bra or underwear though. Man, truth or dare has changed a lot since I was in middle school. Our dares were a lot more.....never mind.

After truth or dare was over, I had to deal with an hour of listening to the Macarna and Cha Cha slide play.  I eventually left the living room and took cover at Starbucks.

I don't remember being this annoying when I was in 6th and 7th grade!

Friday, October 21, 2011

5 Question Friday

1. Where do you escape to when you've had enough?
My room. Its mine and nobody else can claim it(even though my sister has big plans for it when I move out). I feel so relaxed just being in my room.

2. What shows are you watching this fall?
Desperate Housewives, Pan Am, Revenge, Gossip Girl, Hart of Dixie, Castle and Parenthood.

3. What was the longest roadtrip you've ever taken and where did you go?
We drove to Idaho when I was in 3rd grade. I got sick once we arrived and on the way back. I still consider it a good roadtrip!

4. Do you plan on taking your kids to Disney World?
Yes! I think every kid needs to go to Disney World at least once!

5. What is something people would surprised to know about you?
Hmmmm.....I sing in the car...and the shower. I know you are all thinking that lots of people sing in the car and shower. But you see I HATE singing. Well, at least I hate singing around people. Put me in a car alone and I start belting out the tunes though.  It gets loud too. Sarah aren't you proud?

Wednesday, October 19, 2011


Me: (Sexy and I know it starts playing) I'm sexy and I know it Mom! Don't you love this song?
Mom: Turn it off! Where did you hear music like this?
Me: Everyone sings it at school and its all over the radio.
Mom: I spend over $6000 a year to send you to a christian school and you bring that home? Then again I'm sure if I sent you to a public school it would be a lot worse. Id probably spend $6000 bailing you out of jail.
Me: Thanks Mom.


In other news my school newspaper is coming out on Friday! I'm the editor(actually we have a new thing with multiple editors but they haven't done much). I actually don't mind doing it by myself. Hopefully people actually read it.

Study hall is like gossip central at my school! Ive been learning so much just sitting there and pretending to work on my homework. Some of the things I hear are pathetic. Rumors that I cant believe anyone would believe! Then there is gossip that makes me smile because it makes me glad Im not the only one that feels that way about something. Does that make me sound mean? I mean seriously, who doesnt love when the "mean" group of the school is losing their reign? About time jerks stop being on top.


Im going to Burlington next weekend with my friend! No, you didnt need to know that but I thought I would share. Im excited about the trip. Should be a blast!

Monday, October 17, 2011


1. I'm teething. Okay, not really but my wisdom teeth are coming in and it hurts! Thankfully my dentist said they seem to be coming in normally. Meaning all this pain they are giving me will soon stop. I wont need to get them removed least that's what he thinks.

2. This weekend was just an okay weekend. I did a Strides Against Breast cancer walk with my friends in the morning. We also went to Footloose! I thought it was a good remake overall. I didn't like Dennis Quaids acting though, I felt like we he was reading off of the script the entire time. You should go see the movie!

3. I taught Sunday school this past Sunday. My Mom normally does it but she was at a Packer game. The kids said I was the best teacher ever! It made my day.

Friday, October 14, 2011

5 Question Friday

I decided it was about time I particapted in another 5 Question Friday! Okay, I admit Ive had a bad case of writers block lately so I decided this will have to do. At least its fun!
1. Do you prefer your ice cream in a bowl or in a cone?
In a bowl. Unless I'm in a crazy mood than I'll get my ice cream in a waffle cone! Other than that I always go for the bowl.

2. What three things do you love the smell of?
Newborns, coffee, and bread baking in the oven!

3. Giftcards or no? (In regards to gift giving...)
I'm fine with gift cards. A little impersonal but sometimes finding a gift for someone is hard!

4. What sports did you play in high school if any and do you still play them?
Volleyball and Softball. I'm still in high school and I only play softball now!

5. Were you in band in high school? What instrument did you play?
Once again I'm still in high school and this semester is the first time I haven't been in bad. :( I normally play triangle and tambourine. Sometimes I play the egg shaker. No joke.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011


What if you woke up today with only the things you thanked God for yesterday?

Ive been thinking about that question a lot recently.

Before I go to bed every night I pray a quick prayer. When I first started this routine I put more effort into my prayer. As time went on though it became a quick prayer because all I wanted to do was sleep! Then when I actually put effort into my prayer it was me asking for things!

Ive been feeling really guilty about it though. Time to put more effort into my talk with God. He deserves more from me.

I made a goal for myself to help me.

For every one request I make, I need to thank God for something else. He actually deserves more thank you's from me but its a start!

Ive found out that I have a lot more to be greatful for than I originally thought!

Monday, October 10, 2011


Blogging was a lot easier when nobody, I knew in real life, actually knew what a blog was. I could vent, express my feelings, complain or anything you could think of and it didn't matter. Then I welcomed my friends into the blogging world. Which apparently they(or most of them) seem to enjoy.

Which is a good and bad thing.

Blogging is special to me for so many reasons. My friends also feel the same towards blogging.  I'm happy for that! Its also a great way to document your life. Apparently you only remember 10% of your memories.

The bad part about sharing this blog is that I opened a side of me that I normally don't like showing. Ive put myself out there on this blog. Talking about difficult times in my past, and other things I normally don't talk about. My friends have even used their blogs to blog about difficult times.

 I love blogging about anything and everything. Sometimes thats not a good thing! Learning to not hit publish, is just as hard as learning to hold my tongue.

Which leads me to the silent reader. Which many of my friends have become. I'm included in this group. Ive blogged about something that is definitely aimed at a friend who read this blog or something very personal. I know they have read the post yet they don't mention it. They go on pretending they didn't see what I had to say.

Its weird to me.

Ive done the same thing many times to others though.

Of course I mention funny posts or ones that I really enjoyed but the darker posts get ignored. They get shoved aside because we don't see that side of each other outside of the blogging world very often. I surely don't know how to respond when I read something like that. Confronting would be awkward, pretending not to have read it is a lot easier.

Makes me think about how much we really don't know about the people we spend almost everyday with. How much they might be hurting. How much they might want to tell you something but is to afraid to say anything. How they have changed but don't want to admit it.

 How much they hide from you.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Teachers at the water park

A random discussion during my Religions in America class.

Mr.M: If we got all the teachers together at a water park we would have a blast! (turns to Mrs. F who is sitting at her desk) You could bring the jello shots again! Mrs. F gets real fun after a few of those!

Mrs. F: (starts laughing and covers face with hands) Shhhhh you arent suppose to mention that in class!


I walked(quietly) into my friends study hall to give her something. All of a sudden the Study hall teacher starts freaking out at me.

*Study Hall Lady

SHL*: Do you have a pass to be in here?
Me: No, but I can I just give this to my friend?
SHL: I need a pass from you.
Me: I dont have a pass but can I just hand this to her?
SHL: (opens binder, flips through pages) Page 11 says I have to give you a demerit for (looks down at book again) disorderly conduct!
Me: What?
SHL: I need a pass from you or I have to give you a demerit for....
Me: Ill leave then (walks out of room)
Olivia: (laughs) Im giving you a demerit for disorderly conduct!
Me: (laughs) I dont think she has any idea what she is talking about!

When Im late for class this is what I do!

Me: Senora! Can you write me a pass?
Senora Bonick: Why do you need a pass this time?
Me: I was talking in the hallway and Im late for study hall!
Senora Bonick: Its not like you are late for a real class.
Me: Mrs. King is in charge of my study hall.
Senora Bonick: Ill write one out right away!

I have my religions in america class in the choir/band room. Randomly my teacher picked up a guitar and started strumming. He decided to sing us a song which went like this....

(strums guitar) There once was a lutheran school teacher...(strums guitar)...who like pretty women...(strums guitar)...but we was married...(strums guitar)...One day we looked at a pretty girl...(strums guitar)...and his wife punched him in the eye...(strums guitar)...which made him very sad...(strums guitar)...ouch!...(strums guitar and looks at finger)...the guitar string just tried to bite my finger...(strums guitar)...literally.

Yes, I do realize how strange this makes my school look!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

One of those

Last night I had an amazing night with an old friend.

One of those nights where you cant stop laughing.

Where good memories from the past come flooding in.

Filling your heart with joy.

You cant help but laugh and smile.

Act like things havent changed since you were little.

Remind eachother about the old memories we have and the new memories we will soon create.
One of those nights where you realize how lucky you are to have that certain someone in your life.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Corn, elevators, and church

On Sunday I brought Eric to my church. My church isn't exactly a normal church. So while at Starbucks in between talking about skiing and how disgusting his drink looked I warned him about what was next.

It ended up going fine!

Everybody loved him.
The sermon wasn't to bad.
 I got to hold a baby.

I showed him the cool elevator(not in my church) too.

While Eric was talking to Shannon's Grandpa. Andrea asked me to come with her to Kansas next fall for the alumni get together/football game at her old college. She needed a designated driver and thought I would be the perfect person. Ummm....thanks? Well at least I get a free trip to Kansas. Spending time with Andrea is always fun too. Apparently her college is surrounded by corn though. Not sure how fun that is going to be.

Just thought I would add this random picture!
I cant get over how much my friend Sarah and my sister look alike!
I also love how Sarah's face looks. ha

Monday, October 3, 2011

They get me everytime

A few weeks ago my group of friends and I were in a fight. It was one of the worst fights we have had. My Mom noticed that whenever I got home I was extremely grumpy. She asked what was wrong and I just told her I was in a fight with some friends. That I was even debating whether or not the friendship we had was even real. She then pointed towards the table and said my answer was laying there. I went to the table and found a birthday card that my friend had made me.

Dear Rae,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope your sixteenth year is as great as you have always dreamed it would be. I also wish you a Merry Golden gold as your new sippy cup! Which by the way, was created with my new found tech-ed skills! I spray painted it in less that a week with no runs! And I didn't even have to sand it. Well any ways, I love you verry very much and I hope your birthday is as special as you are.

Love, Your favorite ginger in the whole wide world!

That birthday card reminded me of so many inside jokes, the wrinkles that we are all going to get because we laugh so much, and how much I love these girls.

"There is nothing on this earth to be prized more than true friendship."
- St. Thomas Aquinas

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Being the oldest is so bad

Sometimes I hate being the oldest. Then I remember that if you are the oldest, youngest, middle child, or wherever you are in the line up. There will be good things about it, and bad things about it. Here are a few good things about being the oldest and having younger siblings.

  • You can wake wake them up in the middle of the night to kill a spider for you.
  • If you are scared to sleep in your room alone(because you watched a scary movie), you can always invite your sibling to sleep on the floor next to you. They know the invite is a rarity and will gladly except it!
  • They want to impress you and be on your good side. In other words they will go get you that soda in the fridge while you blog about them.
  • They complain that they don't have as fun of a life as you. Which makes you feel like you have an awesome life!
  • Parents get smart after YOU mess up. Meaning you probably had more freedom then they will have. Crash the car, your siblings wont have as much access to the car.  (Sorry that you will have a curfew Alexis. I didn't have one until I turned 16 and came home at 3am one to many times.) This can also work the other way, which is bad news for you. Like your parents have all these rules for you but ease up on your younger siblings.
  • They are scared of you. I know this isn't true for all siblings but my sister knows when I mean business. Which means she gives me space and backs off.

Friday, September 30, 2011

Random thought of the day

I was talking with my friend Andrea recently. She brought up one embarassing story, then I told another embarassing story, and we just kept going back and forth.

Man, I have a lot of embarassing stories! Ive also witnessed a lot of embarassing moments too.

God must have a blast watching us humans. All of the stupid/hilarious things that happen to us.

And that is my random thought of the day.

I thought Id throw in a random picture to go with my random thought.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

The post where I brag a bit

Sometimes I think its to good to be true.

Other times I think I'm dreaming.

Most of the time I'm realizing how lucky I am!

He knows I have strange quirks( like having an opinion on every house I see) but he works with them.

My parents love him and my friends approve, which makes him even better!

"We fit together so's like pieces of a puzzle, the way your hand fits the curve of my hip and the way my head rests on your shoulder, the way our hands just melt into one, and the way I feel complete when I'm with the picture's finally completed and I'll never have to wonder what I'm missing"
-E.E. Cummings

Monday, September 26, 2011

Homecoming 2011

This past week was homecoming week at my school!
Every day we had a different theme and we dressed up to match it.
We also had two homecoming games.
Which were football and soccer.
We also had a kickball tournament between all the classes.

Sydney dressed up as Super Snap for superhero day! People call her ginger snap.

On Saturday was the homecoming dance!
We all got ready at my house.
Took pictures, drove to Fazoli's, shopped for cookie ingredients, and took pictures at Shopko.
We even had a phone go missing after we made all of these stops.

Yes, I was talking on the phone while pictures were being taken.

It was an important phone call!

 After the dance we went to make cookies.
Then headed to taco bell!
In which we met up with our new taco bell friend!
He let us in the closed lobby.
Then allowed us to literally walk through the drive-thru.
We almost got pulled over by a cop too.
Thank goodness he wasnt after us!

This homecoming has topped all other homecomings!
We all agreed on that.
We made memories that will last us a lifetime.
Shed a few tears.
Danced like it was going out of style.

Sister picture

Homecoming 2011 is one for the books.
We had a blast.
Makes me sad that we only have one homecoming left.
But we are full steam ahead for an amazing year.