Sunday, October 30, 2011

A little fuzzy

I haven't been myself lately. I'm not sure what triggered the change but I'm sure I could give a few guesses. I see my old self some days. Those days have come and go randomly a lot like a TV with an antenna. I just wish the TV would stop being so fuzzy.

Its times like these where I wish I was more open. Where I could tell anyone how I felt. Not that it would really help at the moment because I'm not even sure how I feel.

 My friends have been walking on egg shells around me lately. Everything they do I get pissed off at. Some of the things would drive me crazy any way (like there lack of responsibility) but other things that I normally would care less about is setting me off. My friends outside of school don't see a change in me. Most likely because I'm not different around them.

Other than that life is good! Outside of my school life I'm happy. I got back from Burlington, WI. I gained a few pounds because all I did was eat! My friends aunt owns a restaurant in Burlington. Then we stayed with a lady that insisted on taking us out every night! I tried paying once and it didn't work very well. We had a lot of down time too. Which I used to read a few books. I really miss reading and Ive been trying to get back into it.

This weekend went way to fast! Im hoping for a great week!

Friday, October 28, 2011

5 Question Friday

*I know I declared I was on a blogging break on Wednesday but I couldnt resist the urge. I think I have a problem.*
1. Do you prefer cotton, silk, or flannel sheets?
Cotton in the summer. Flannel in the winter. Both are from Target and under $20. So Im not picky about my sheets. Which is one reason I dont think Ill buy expensive sheets because I might see what Im missing and I cant afford them any way!

2. What time zone are you in?
Central. I feel like its dark all the time recently!

3. What is your favorite part of the holiday season?
Spending time with family you dont see very often! I also love the hustle and bustle of the holiday season. Most people hate the crowds when they shop but I love them(at least during the holidays). The food is amazing too! And the smells!

4. What is your favorite "wintry" drink? (It doesn't have to be an "alcoholic" drink!)
I love Starbucks holiday drinks! I dont even have a specific favorite because they are all so good!

5. In your opinion, what is the worst job in the world?
Stripper, prostitute,etc. I think those would be the worst jobs ever. I just cant imagine having a job like that. 

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Blogging Break

I'm off to Burlington....

Which means I'm taking a blogging break until I return!

I also have writers block so really Im just using my trip as an excuse.

I love 4 day weekends!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

6-7th graders

My sister had her whole volleyball team sleep over on Friday night. My chemistry teachers daughter is part of the team and so was my biology/ex-volleyball coach's daughter. The short 2 hours I was actually at home with them was a nightmare. I was upstairs and they were scheming downstairs. They were playing truth or dare. Many of the dares included me unfortunately.

 "Go upstairs and tell Rae her style is groovy" *giggle* (sound of nine girls running up the stairs) *giggle* "Your style is groovy!" *giggle* (girls all run down stairs)

It was the same thing over and over again except they would change up what they had to say to me. I even heard "Should we get her bra or underwear?" I put a stop to whatever they thought they were going to do with my bra or underwear though. Man, truth or dare has changed a lot since I was in middle school. Our dares were a lot more.....never mind.

After truth or dare was over, I had to deal with an hour of listening to the Macarna and Cha Cha slide play.  I eventually left the living room and took cover at Starbucks.

I don't remember being this annoying when I was in 6th and 7th grade!

Friday, October 21, 2011

5 Question Friday

1. Where do you escape to when you've had enough?
My room. Its mine and nobody else can claim it(even though my sister has big plans for it when I move out). I feel so relaxed just being in my room.

2. What shows are you watching this fall?
Desperate Housewives, Pan Am, Revenge, Gossip Girl, Hart of Dixie, Castle and Parenthood.

3. What was the longest roadtrip you've ever taken and where did you go?
We drove to Idaho when I was in 3rd grade. I got sick once we arrived and on the way back. I still consider it a good roadtrip!

4. Do you plan on taking your kids to Disney World?
Yes! I think every kid needs to go to Disney World at least once!

5. What is something people would surprised to know about you?
Hmmmm.....I sing in the car...and the shower. I know you are all thinking that lots of people sing in the car and shower. But you see I HATE singing. Well, at least I hate singing around people. Put me in a car alone and I start belting out the tunes though.  It gets loud too. Sarah aren't you proud?

Wednesday, October 19, 2011


Me: (Sexy and I know it starts playing) I'm sexy and I know it Mom! Don't you love this song?
Mom: Turn it off! Where did you hear music like this?
Me: Everyone sings it at school and its all over the radio.
Mom: I spend over $6000 a year to send you to a christian school and you bring that home? Then again I'm sure if I sent you to a public school it would be a lot worse. Id probably spend $6000 bailing you out of jail.
Me: Thanks Mom.


In other news my school newspaper is coming out on Friday! I'm the editor(actually we have a new thing with multiple editors but they haven't done much). I actually don't mind doing it by myself. Hopefully people actually read it.

Study hall is like gossip central at my school! Ive been learning so much just sitting there and pretending to work on my homework. Some of the things I hear are pathetic. Rumors that I cant believe anyone would believe! Then there is gossip that makes me smile because it makes me glad Im not the only one that feels that way about something. Does that make me sound mean? I mean seriously, who doesnt love when the "mean" group of the school is losing their reign? About time jerks stop being on top.


Im going to Burlington next weekend with my friend! No, you didnt need to know that but I thought I would share. Im excited about the trip. Should be a blast!

Monday, October 17, 2011


1. I'm teething. Okay, not really but my wisdom teeth are coming in and it hurts! Thankfully my dentist said they seem to be coming in normally. Meaning all this pain they are giving me will soon stop. I wont need to get them removed least that's what he thinks.

2. This weekend was just an okay weekend. I did a Strides Against Breast cancer walk with my friends in the morning. We also went to Footloose! I thought it was a good remake overall. I didn't like Dennis Quaids acting though, I felt like we he was reading off of the script the entire time. You should go see the movie!

3. I taught Sunday school this past Sunday. My Mom normally does it but she was at a Packer game. The kids said I was the best teacher ever! It made my day.

Friday, October 14, 2011

5 Question Friday

I decided it was about time I particapted in another 5 Question Friday! Okay, I admit Ive had a bad case of writers block lately so I decided this will have to do. At least its fun!
1. Do you prefer your ice cream in a bowl or in a cone?
In a bowl. Unless I'm in a crazy mood than I'll get my ice cream in a waffle cone! Other than that I always go for the bowl.

2. What three things do you love the smell of?
Newborns, coffee, and bread baking in the oven!

3. Giftcards or no? (In regards to gift giving...)
I'm fine with gift cards. A little impersonal but sometimes finding a gift for someone is hard!

4. What sports did you play in high school if any and do you still play them?
Volleyball and Softball. I'm still in high school and I only play softball now!

5. Were you in band in high school? What instrument did you play?
Once again I'm still in high school and this semester is the first time I haven't been in bad. :( I normally play triangle and tambourine. Sometimes I play the egg shaker. No joke.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011


What if you woke up today with only the things you thanked God for yesterday?

Ive been thinking about that question a lot recently.

Before I go to bed every night I pray a quick prayer. When I first started this routine I put more effort into my prayer. As time went on though it became a quick prayer because all I wanted to do was sleep! Then when I actually put effort into my prayer it was me asking for things!

Ive been feeling really guilty about it though. Time to put more effort into my talk with God. He deserves more from me.

I made a goal for myself to help me.

For every one request I make, I need to thank God for something else. He actually deserves more thank you's from me but its a start!

Ive found out that I have a lot more to be greatful for than I originally thought!

Monday, October 10, 2011


Blogging was a lot easier when nobody, I knew in real life, actually knew what a blog was. I could vent, express my feelings, complain or anything you could think of and it didn't matter. Then I welcomed my friends into the blogging world. Which apparently they(or most of them) seem to enjoy.

Which is a good and bad thing.

Blogging is special to me for so many reasons. My friends also feel the same towards blogging.  I'm happy for that! Its also a great way to document your life. Apparently you only remember 10% of your memories.

The bad part about sharing this blog is that I opened a side of me that I normally don't like showing. Ive put myself out there on this blog. Talking about difficult times in my past, and other things I normally don't talk about. My friends have even used their blogs to blog about difficult times.

 I love blogging about anything and everything. Sometimes thats not a good thing! Learning to not hit publish, is just as hard as learning to hold my tongue.

Which leads me to the silent reader. Which many of my friends have become. I'm included in this group. Ive blogged about something that is definitely aimed at a friend who read this blog or something very personal. I know they have read the post yet they don't mention it. They go on pretending they didn't see what I had to say.

Its weird to me.

Ive done the same thing many times to others though.

Of course I mention funny posts or ones that I really enjoyed but the darker posts get ignored. They get shoved aside because we don't see that side of each other outside of the blogging world very often. I surely don't know how to respond when I read something like that. Confronting would be awkward, pretending not to have read it is a lot easier.

Makes me think about how much we really don't know about the people we spend almost everyday with. How much they might be hurting. How much they might want to tell you something but is to afraid to say anything. How they have changed but don't want to admit it.

 How much they hide from you.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Teachers at the water park

A random discussion during my Religions in America class.

Mr.M: If we got all the teachers together at a water park we would have a blast! (turns to Mrs. F who is sitting at her desk) You could bring the jello shots again! Mrs. F gets real fun after a few of those!

Mrs. F: (starts laughing and covers face with hands) Shhhhh you arent suppose to mention that in class!


I walked(quietly) into my friends study hall to give her something. All of a sudden the Study hall teacher starts freaking out at me.

*Study Hall Lady

SHL*: Do you have a pass to be in here?
Me: No, but I can I just give this to my friend?
SHL: I need a pass from you.
Me: I dont have a pass but can I just hand this to her?
SHL: (opens binder, flips through pages) Page 11 says I have to give you a demerit for (looks down at book again) disorderly conduct!
Me: What?
SHL: I need a pass from you or I have to give you a demerit for....
Me: Ill leave then (walks out of room)
Olivia: (laughs) Im giving you a demerit for disorderly conduct!
Me: (laughs) I dont think she has any idea what she is talking about!

When Im late for class this is what I do!

Me: Senora! Can you write me a pass?
Senora Bonick: Why do you need a pass this time?
Me: I was talking in the hallway and Im late for study hall!
Senora Bonick: Its not like you are late for a real class.
Me: Mrs. King is in charge of my study hall.
Senora Bonick: Ill write one out right away!

I have my religions in america class in the choir/band room. Randomly my teacher picked up a guitar and started strumming. He decided to sing us a song which went like this....

(strums guitar) There once was a lutheran school teacher...(strums guitar)...who like pretty women...(strums guitar)...but we was married...(strums guitar)...One day we looked at a pretty girl...(strums guitar)...and his wife punched him in the eye...(strums guitar)...which made him very sad...(strums guitar)...ouch!...(strums guitar and looks at finger)...the guitar string just tried to bite my finger...(strums guitar)...literally.

Yes, I do realize how strange this makes my school look!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

One of those

Last night I had an amazing night with an old friend.

One of those nights where you cant stop laughing.

Where good memories from the past come flooding in.

Filling your heart with joy.

You cant help but laugh and smile.

Act like things havent changed since you were little.

Remind eachother about the old memories we have and the new memories we will soon create.
One of those nights where you realize how lucky you are to have that certain someone in your life.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Corn, elevators, and church

On Sunday I brought Eric to my church. My church isn't exactly a normal church. So while at Starbucks in between talking about skiing and how disgusting his drink looked I warned him about what was next.

It ended up going fine!

Everybody loved him.
The sermon wasn't to bad.
 I got to hold a baby.

I showed him the cool elevator(not in my church) too.

While Eric was talking to Shannon's Grandpa. Andrea asked me to come with her to Kansas next fall for the alumni get together/football game at her old college. She needed a designated driver and thought I would be the perfect person. Ummm....thanks? Well at least I get a free trip to Kansas. Spending time with Andrea is always fun too. Apparently her college is surrounded by corn though. Not sure how fun that is going to be.

Just thought I would add this random picture!
I cant get over how much my friend Sarah and my sister look alike!
I also love how Sarah's face looks. ha

Monday, October 3, 2011

They get me everytime

A few weeks ago my group of friends and I were in a fight. It was one of the worst fights we have had. My Mom noticed that whenever I got home I was extremely grumpy. She asked what was wrong and I just told her I was in a fight with some friends. That I was even debating whether or not the friendship we had was even real. She then pointed towards the table and said my answer was laying there. I went to the table and found a birthday card that my friend had made me.

Dear Rae,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope your sixteenth year is as great as you have always dreamed it would be. I also wish you a Merry Golden gold as your new sippy cup! Which by the way, was created with my new found tech-ed skills! I spray painted it in less that a week with no runs! And I didn't even have to sand it. Well any ways, I love you verry very much and I hope your birthday is as special as you are.

Love, Your favorite ginger in the whole wide world!

That birthday card reminded me of so many inside jokes, the wrinkles that we are all going to get because we laugh so much, and how much I love these girls.

"There is nothing on this earth to be prized more than true friendship."
- St. Thomas Aquinas

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Being the oldest is so bad

Sometimes I hate being the oldest. Then I remember that if you are the oldest, youngest, middle child, or wherever you are in the line up. There will be good things about it, and bad things about it. Here are a few good things about being the oldest and having younger siblings.

  • You can wake wake them up in the middle of the night to kill a spider for you.
  • If you are scared to sleep in your room alone(because you watched a scary movie), you can always invite your sibling to sleep on the floor next to you. They know the invite is a rarity and will gladly except it!
  • They want to impress you and be on your good side. In other words they will go get you that soda in the fridge while you blog about them.
  • They complain that they don't have as fun of a life as you. Which makes you feel like you have an awesome life!
  • Parents get smart after YOU mess up. Meaning you probably had more freedom then they will have. Crash the car, your siblings wont have as much access to the car.  (Sorry that you will have a curfew Alexis. I didn't have one until I turned 16 and came home at 3am one to many times.) This can also work the other way, which is bad news for you. Like your parents have all these rules for you but ease up on your younger siblings.
  • They are scared of you. I know this isn't true for all siblings but my sister knows when I mean business. Which means she gives me space and backs off.