Monday, December 31, 2012


The year 2012 was an interesting year. Lots of good times and some bad. Plenty of tears, but even more laughs.

Found myself a job which I love.
My co-workers are like my family.
Went to Prom with Eric.
It was a lot of fun and we all got a nice workout.
The after party was lame though.

Sarah and Sydney both joined softball!
I loved having them on my team.
They made it a special season.
I partied plenty.
Mainly with my N.E.W. friends.
Nothing like posing for a picture with red solo cups.
I'm almost positive that one went to our softball coach.
What rebels we are.
I returned to Haiti.
Loved seeing familiar faces!

Went to Chicago a few times.
My favorite being with one of my besties Sarah.
Love that girl.

Senior retreat kick-started our senior year.
Late night chats with friends, spiders, skinny dipping, getting lost, and freezing in our tent summed up that retreat.

Our last homecoming was bitter sweet.
Silly string, sparkly dress, more girly late night chats,  tping late at night, and getting caught in Tyler's yard.

Going to Cedarville with Sarah.
We stayed in her sisters dorm.
Sarah and I would have a blast if we went to college together.
I'm not sure we would graduate though.

Taking my last school pictures was interesting.
I never thought that tradition would end.

I attended a lot of concerts with my girls, that were not christian artists.
Which was a whopping two.
About time they decided country music was the best!
There were plenty more memories this year.
Ranging from our time at Sarah's uncle's cabin to the many weekday sleepovers.
2012 had a lot of lasts, laughs, and lazy days.
I'm sad to see it go, but I'm ready to see what 2013 has in store.

Monday, December 24, 2012


Every year, I tell myself that this holiday season, will be different. I'll get into the spirit of the holidays by baking, listening to Christmas music, and wearing ugly sweaters. All of a sudden Christmas is tomorrow and I find myself, once again, disappointed because I didn't get into the holiday spirit. My parents and sister even went to get a Christmas tree and decorated it without me!

On a brighter note, since I hate surprises, my sister told me what my mom got me for Christmas! Shampoo and conditioner. Apparently, my mom overheard me talking about needing some and thought it would be a nice addition under the tree.

Don't worry it gets better! I woke up not being able to breath out of my nose, my head felt like it was going to explode, I couldn't stop sneezing, and my eyes kept watering. While attempting to sleep off this strange illness, my mom apparently found youtube.

Except, she doesn't get the concept of waiting for something to load. It's all stop, listen, stop, listen,stop,etc. I just love being waken up by segments of people singing Christmas songs. I included the video to add to my sob story.

Just call me the scrooge.
Christmas hates me, and I hate it.
Prepare for a nice post tomorrow about the real reason for the season.
You know it's the night of our dear saviors birth?

Monday, December 17, 2012


“Try to imagine a life without timekeeping. You probably can’t. You know the month, the year, the day of the week. There is a clock on your wall or the dashboard of your car. You have a schedule, a calendar, a time for dinner or a movie. Yet all around you, timekeeping is ignored. Birds are not late. A dog does not check its watch. Deer do not fret over passing birthdays. an alone measures time. Man alone chimes the hour. And, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other creature endures. A fear of time running out.”

― Mitch Albom, The Time Keeper

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Foods I would probably enjoy if they didnt gross me out

Eggs: Every time I see one sizzling on the frying pan, in tons of butter, and with a bit of pepper sprinkled on top, I start salivating. Fried until the edges are crisp and then the yolk is broken and allowed to ooze out. After the yolk becomes more solid I plop that egg on my plate. I take one bite of the yolk part and start gagging. Not because it tastes bad, but because I think of what this egg could have been. My egg then gets passed on to either the garbage or an egg lover.

Bananas: I love them in smoothies, and that's about it. They smell good and taste sort of good. I get grossed out when the stringy stuff comes along with the banana and it's so mushy! Plus have you seen what a banana resembles? No straight face eating goes on when a banana is involved for me. That is why you will never see me eating a banana...ever.

Calamari: Aka:Squid. I was fine until I got to the chewy tentacle and then my boyfriend got to witness my half eaten squid tentacle fall from my mouth to the plate. End of story.

Liver paste: My Uncle was trying to convince me to try it. I didn't. The name says enough....

To be continued....

Wednesday, December 12, 2012


Not only is this a sweet date to write out, it is also my favorite dads birthday!
Happy birthday Oldie Gray Locks!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Wedding 2012

This past weekend was my Uncle Keith and Aunt Gail's wedding.
After ten years of dating they finally decided to tie the knot!
Of course a wedding means that the relatives come to town!
Her Mom was trying to figure out the best setting for her camera.
Julie got bored of posing.
I have a fairly large extended family and getting us all together is not an easy feat.
I especially love when my two cousins from Idaho come to town!

Me, Julie, and Aunt Karen
I'm stuck smack dab in the middle of the cousins.
My closest oldest (by blood) cousin is 22(lives in Utah) and my closest younger cousin is 13.
I have a ton of little cousins under the age of thirteen and four cousins 22 and over.
So that has left me hanging out with the adults for the majority of my life.

Me, Julie, and my sister
I love my younger cousins, but relating to them is difficult.
I don't enjoy playing with fake guns and swords and they do.
The great thing about me getting older is that the older cousins have finally accepted me!
I have upgraded from a "little" cousin.
About time!

My Dad, sister, and I
So on Friday my parents, my little cousins, and a few aunts and uncles went to Wisconsin Dells.
Leaving the "left overs" at my Aunts for dinner.
Three beer runs later the conversation was getting interesting.

L to R: My sister, Anthony, Me, Zakary, Julie, and Levi
On Saturday we had dinner at a bowling alley/bar.
My family likes to drink if you haven't caught on to the pattern yet.
We had the best cheese curds ever!

The cousins
Sunday morning I had coffee with my cousins Julie and Levi.
Then we got ready for the wedding reception.

Many pictures were taken....

My Family, Bride and Groom, and my grandma

My mommy and I
My lesbian cousin Gina brought her girlfriend home for the weekend.
My Mother had always told me "Hate the sin, love the sinner" haha
So I really hit it off with her girlfriend.
She was so nice!
I even got an invite to watch the packer game with her and Gina.

Grandma with youngest grandchild
Cute Alarm Clock
Zakary: It is 10:24! Time to rise and shine.
Gina: Zakary, want to come cuddle with me?
Zakary: No. (walks out of the room)

L to R: Me, Grandma, Emory, Jonna, and my dad

Emory and Jonna
It was a good weekend that I did not want to end.
I got promoted to the upper cousin group, bonded with the family, and made a lot of memories.
Hopefully it doesnt take another five years to get us all back together!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

She's a little sister

A few days ago my Dad was talking about class rings. Which of course led to a story about how his friends brother pawned my dads ring. I'm almost positive my dad still holds that grudge.  My Mom said she never got one. Then she proceeded to tell me about how she lost her older sisters class ring.

Then it all clicked.

My mom is someones little sister.

It only took seventeen years to really put two and two together.

Losing that ring was a typical little sister thing to do.

That explains why my parents always side with my little sister. They are both #3 in the birth order. They do not know all the crap that the oldest sibling has to deal with. In other words, I have been doomed since the birth of my sister.

Time to do my weekly sweep of my sisters room. My things magically appear in there. This will be a good topic to bring up at our families Christmas gathering. Kick back a few with my aunts and complain about all the things us older siblings have to deal with.

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Here's to the crazy ones

I love this quote! I am currently in a blogging funk. Plenty of drafts, but nothing is finished. Maybe one of these days my blogging ability will return, until then I leave you with one of my favorite quotes.

"Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes... the ones who see things differently -- they're not fond of rules... You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things... they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do."

-Steve Jobs

I love it!

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


Damn it.
The obsession has resurfaced.
It started again because I ran across a blog.
The blogger was from Brooklyn.
I want to be in Brooklyn!
(photo via google images)
I honestly do not know why I am drawn to big cities.
Born(technically I was born in a town 30 minutes away) and raised in a semi-small town in Wisconsin.
Shouldn't I want to live surrounded by corn fields or something?
The fast paced life is the life for me!
A city that never sleeps?
Sign me up!
Example: My favorite time to shop is the holiday season. I like the crowds.

(photo via google images)
I have been to New York City once in my life.
I was in middle school.
My parents, sister, best friend, and I drove there.
It was magical!
We shopped at Macy's, went to Times Square, got a hotdog at a stand, and got splashed by a taxi cab.
I did not want to leave.
I live about four hours away from Chicago.
My parents know about my obsession with big cities and we go there often.
I know downtown Chicago farely well already.
I always love going but its not New York City.
Plus I always have to go home after a day or two.

(photo via google images)
Once upon a time I gave up my NYC living dreams.
I want to be a nurse.
I almost convinced myself to go get a degree in business for I could somehow work NYC into my future.
Low and behold I stuck with nursing.
Its my calling.
I started researching nursing in New York City.
People, it is totally possible!
Everyone says its tough though.
Long hours, stress, and rent is expensive!
I can do long hours, I can handle stress, and I love ramen noodles.
So once I am in college and complaining every day about how hard becoming a nurse is, I would like to be reminded about my goal.
To live in NYC as a nurse.
Go big or go home!
And don't tell anybody but I might have been looking at apartments already.
Do you think 5 years is to soon?

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Yee haw

Nothing like a perfect picture being photo-bombed by a pair of boobs.
Thanks Sarah.
 Half of Sydneys face is missing too.
Oh well.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Christmas List

My parents asked for my christmas list today. Which meant that I had to come up with some things that I wanted. It is the most pathetic list ever!
  • New shoes for work
  • New ipad case
  • Order new contacts
  • Proactive
The list gets even worse! I miss the days were my list was filled with toys. Now the items I put on my list are things I actually need, but dont feel like buying myself. Well, I always wanted to be older. I guess becoming boring is part of the territory? I wonder what my parents would do if I put a random item like a barbie doll on the list. It would make the list a little more exciting!

Sunday, November 18, 2012

99 Red Balloons

*Warning: This post went straight from my head to this. Ever want to know what someone was thinking? Well here you go. A nice sneak peak inside the head of a pissed off girl that cant get over the past.*

"Let your past make you better, not bitter."

On Thanksgiving Im continuing on with tradition. I will spend the 1st half of thanksgiving with my moms side of the family and for dessert I will head over to my ex-pastors house. Im not inviting myself over. They have always had an open invite for people that have no place to go on Thanksgiving. I like routine, patterns, and traditions. Thats why I decided that Im going even though we are not exactly friends. It is important for me to spend yet another Thanksgiving with my best friend and people that I have grown up with.

I havent seen that man in almost a year. Honestly, I am a bit scared. Do I just waltz into his house and pretend like its not weird?

The thing is Im still angry and I know I shouldnt be. No one truly understands the damage that occurred to me in the situation. I put walls up when I feel threatened and I built some high walls regarding him...and the church. Sometimes I wonder to myself if Im making everything out to be a bigger deal than it is. Am I just using it as an excuse? I want an explanation from him though. I have seen it happen before. Friends become foes. Not in the way it happened between us. Maybe that will make things better? An explanation on what was going through his head?

I just hate that when I think about my church, he pops into my mind. I get angry and my heart literally hurts. It beats faster and I feel like crying. Everybody tells me to get over it, because he does not go there any more. They just dont understand. How could they when I still cant wrap my head around it?

I sound like Im talking about a fucking ex-boyfriend! He was my damn pastor for gods sake! I should not be having these problems.

Tradition is important to me. Im not just going to their house because I want to see him...right?

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Chinese food

Chinese food kind of looks gross.
Good thing it tastes so good!
Thursday night a few girls from school went to keep Martina company.
She was home alone for the weekend.
We wanted to represent both countries in the room so we ordered chinese food and pizza!
We spent a ton on food that night.
Than proceeded to watch chick flicks.
Funny moment: When we thought the chinese guy had arrived. He opened the door and just walked right into the kitchen. It ended up being Nina's brother.
After Martina and I went shoeless to go save Olivia from her grandparents at 1am,
we watched a scary movie.
I hate scary movies.
Between writing my research paper, cuddling with my cat, working, sleeping, and hanging out with friends I have been ridiculously busy!
My goal for this weekend was to clean my room.
It has yet to happen.

Random picture from this weekend:
Zach ordering food and pretending he actually has a beard.
Yay for no shave november?!
Which I am participating in too....jk maybe.

Saturday, November 3, 2012


    Everytime I post these I can see Sarahs face in my head. The disappointment spread across her face. I should really post more of these! I kid...kinda.
    This playlist has a little bit of everything. Majority of it is country but thats a good thing since country is the best genre! Im a bit physced that Faith Hill actually has a newish song out. I missed her. When I was younger she was one of my favorites! So listen(or dont in Sarahs case), enjoy, and tell me what you love or dont love. Im always up for new song suggestions!

    1) Who I am- Jessica Andrews

    2) On Top of the World- Imagine Dragons

    3) Cowboy Take Me Away- Dixie Chick
    4) Die Young- Kesha

    5) American Heart- Faith Hill

    6) My Oh My- Tristan Prettyman
    7)Bad For Me- Megan and Liz

    8) Cowgirls Dont Cry- Brooks and Dunn

    9) I Cry- Flo Rida

    10) Oath- Cher Lloyd

    11) Finally Found You- Enrique Iglesias


Thursday, November 1, 2012


Yes, I went trick-or-treating as a senior in high school. Not only did I go trick-or-treating, but so did four of my fellow senior friends. We just wanted that last hurrah! It was weird. I actually felt to old to be out gathering candy. When did we get old?

 I heard on the radio that people don't mind high schoolers going trick-or-treating as long as they didn't bully the younger kids, steal all the candy from the bowls left on the porches, and wore a costume.
My friends and I followed all of these rules!

The last time I will go trick-or-treating as a trick-or-treater was a success.
I got a ton of candy!
I also looked like a nice cousin/sister because I went with my younger sister and cousins.
We even got to check out some hots guys.
Did you see the firefighter in the above picture?

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Pizza Ranch Family

Yes, this is another post related to my job.
I just love my place of work so much, that I felt that it deserved another post.
This is my Pizza Ranch Family.
Pizza Ranch family meet the blog.

(I'm the one wearing a green shirt and white skinny jeans)

These pictures were taken on our first "hang out" night as a Pizza Ranch family.
Yes, we refer to each other as family now.
We are just that cool.
We went bowling.
My reaction to bowling was...
Me: I know understand why the put bars in bowling alleys. You need to be drunk in order to actually enjoy bowling.
Caitlynn: That's why I'm already on drink number three!

See that guy wearing a viking #12 jersey.
That is my pal AJ.
Who is in between Miles, Mark, and Lee.
In case you wondered who those strange guys were.
AJ insisted on being Caitlynns DD for the night.
Even though Caitlynn insisted she was just tipsy.
AJ: You are drunk!
Caitlynn: I am not drunk. If I was drunk my pants would be off.
AJ ended up running her car into a curb and scratching the front bumper.
Nothing like running your managers car into a curb.
Don't you just love family!?

Well, I will leave you with one last conversation I had recently with Amanda.
Apparently, she graduated from the school I currently attend.
She hated it there.
So when a bunch of her old teachers came into the restaurant she freaked.
Amanda: The people at NEW were all like "Praise Jesus!" and I was all like" Thank the Lord Im not pregnant yet!"
Caitlynn: So why weren't you liked at NEW?
Amanda: I smoked pot, got drunk, and then got pregnant after graduation. I didnt exactly fit in.
Did I mention how much I love it there?

Friday, October 26, 2012

Festival of Fun

Last night was one of those night that make me dread graduation.
I have no doubt in my mind that some, if not most of us will stay in contact after graduation.
Yet, it will never be the same after May 25th, 2013.
We will all be on different paths in life.
Making new friends, having new adventures, and forming new inside jokes.
Which is why I appreciate nights like last night.
We created memories and formed even closer bonds as a class.
We seized a moment of our fleeting teenage lives,
and now have another memory to place in the back of our minds.
A memory that will hopefully resurface in 10 or 20 years from now and make us smile.

Our Peer Ministry class held a Festival of Fun for Everyone.
It was a fundraiser to raise money for the church and school I went on a mission trip too in Haiti.
We planned the event and put it together in six days.
Our financial goal was met!

Im surprised by the amount of people that actually showed up!
Things like this are normally dubbed "lame" and have low attendance.
God always provides!

Best moment of the night:
Shannon yelling at a guy named Noah for making out with his girlfriend.
It included a broom, praying, asian eyes, and many "hand checks" afterwards.
I love that girl!
Miss. Griffin even put Shannon in charge of the "hand checks".

(notice the wii remote in the air)

I ended the night driving, buying, and decorating things with Elisebeth and Kayla.
Using the "you are only young once" excuse.

"We do dumb things while we are young, for we have something to smile at when we are old."

Goal for senior year:
Leave it with no regrets.