Thursday, November 29, 2012

Here's to the crazy ones

I love this quote! I am currently in a blogging funk. Plenty of drafts, but nothing is finished. Maybe one of these days my blogging ability will return, until then I leave you with one of my favorite quotes.

"Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes... the ones who see things differently -- they're not fond of rules... You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things... they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do."

-Steve Jobs

I love it!

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


Damn it.
The obsession has resurfaced.
It started again because I ran across a blog.
The blogger was from Brooklyn.
I want to be in Brooklyn!
(photo via google images)
I honestly do not know why I am drawn to big cities.
Born(technically I was born in a town 30 minutes away) and raised in a semi-small town in Wisconsin.
Shouldn't I want to live surrounded by corn fields or something?
The fast paced life is the life for me!
A city that never sleeps?
Sign me up!
Example: My favorite time to shop is the holiday season. I like the crowds.

(photo via google images)
I have been to New York City once in my life.
I was in middle school.
My parents, sister, best friend, and I drove there.
It was magical!
We shopped at Macy's, went to Times Square, got a hotdog at a stand, and got splashed by a taxi cab.
I did not want to leave.
I live about four hours away from Chicago.
My parents know about my obsession with big cities and we go there often.
I know downtown Chicago farely well already.
I always love going but its not New York City.
Plus I always have to go home after a day or two.

(photo via google images)
Once upon a time I gave up my NYC living dreams.
I want to be a nurse.
I almost convinced myself to go get a degree in business for I could somehow work NYC into my future.
Low and behold I stuck with nursing.
Its my calling.
I started researching nursing in New York City.
People, it is totally possible!
Everyone says its tough though.
Long hours, stress, and rent is expensive!
I can do long hours, I can handle stress, and I love ramen noodles.
So once I am in college and complaining every day about how hard becoming a nurse is, I would like to be reminded about my goal.
To live in NYC as a nurse.
Go big or go home!
And don't tell anybody but I might have been looking at apartments already.
Do you think 5 years is to soon?

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Yee haw

Nothing like a perfect picture being photo-bombed by a pair of boobs.
Thanks Sarah.
 Half of Sydneys face is missing too.
Oh well.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Christmas List

My parents asked for my christmas list today. Which meant that I had to come up with some things that I wanted. It is the most pathetic list ever!
  • New shoes for work
  • New ipad case
  • Order new contacts
  • Proactive
The list gets even worse! I miss the days were my list was filled with toys. Now the items I put on my list are things I actually need, but dont feel like buying myself. Well, I always wanted to be older. I guess becoming boring is part of the territory? I wonder what my parents would do if I put a random item like a barbie doll on the list. It would make the list a little more exciting!

Sunday, November 18, 2012

99 Red Balloons

*Warning: This post went straight from my head to this. Ever want to know what someone was thinking? Well here you go. A nice sneak peak inside the head of a pissed off girl that cant get over the past.*

"Let your past make you better, not bitter."

On Thanksgiving Im continuing on with tradition. I will spend the 1st half of thanksgiving with my moms side of the family and for dessert I will head over to my ex-pastors house. Im not inviting myself over. They have always had an open invite for people that have no place to go on Thanksgiving. I like routine, patterns, and traditions. Thats why I decided that Im going even though we are not exactly friends. It is important for me to spend yet another Thanksgiving with my best friend and people that I have grown up with.

I havent seen that man in almost a year. Honestly, I am a bit scared. Do I just waltz into his house and pretend like its not weird?

The thing is Im still angry and I know I shouldnt be. No one truly understands the damage that occurred to me in the situation. I put walls up when I feel threatened and I built some high walls regarding him...and the church. Sometimes I wonder to myself if Im making everything out to be a bigger deal than it is. Am I just using it as an excuse? I want an explanation from him though. I have seen it happen before. Friends become foes. Not in the way it happened between us. Maybe that will make things better? An explanation on what was going through his head?

I just hate that when I think about my church, he pops into my mind. I get angry and my heart literally hurts. It beats faster and I feel like crying. Everybody tells me to get over it, because he does not go there any more. They just dont understand. How could they when I still cant wrap my head around it?

I sound like Im talking about a fucking ex-boyfriend! He was my damn pastor for gods sake! I should not be having these problems.

Tradition is important to me. Im not just going to their house because I want to see him...right?

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Chinese food

Chinese food kind of looks gross.
Good thing it tastes so good!
Thursday night a few girls from school went to keep Martina company.
She was home alone for the weekend.
We wanted to represent both countries in the room so we ordered chinese food and pizza!
We spent a ton on food that night.
Than proceeded to watch chick flicks.
Funny moment: When we thought the chinese guy had arrived. He opened the door and just walked right into the kitchen. It ended up being Nina's brother.
After Martina and I went shoeless to go save Olivia from her grandparents at 1am,
we watched a scary movie.
I hate scary movies.
Between writing my research paper, cuddling with my cat, working, sleeping, and hanging out with friends I have been ridiculously busy!
My goal for this weekend was to clean my room.
It has yet to happen.

Random picture from this weekend:
Zach ordering food and pretending he actually has a beard.
Yay for no shave november?!
Which I am participating in too....jk maybe.

Saturday, November 3, 2012


    Everytime I post these I can see Sarahs face in my head. The disappointment spread across her face. I should really post more of these! I kid...kinda.
    This playlist has a little bit of everything. Majority of it is country but thats a good thing since country is the best genre! Im a bit physced that Faith Hill actually has a newish song out. I missed her. When I was younger she was one of my favorites! So listen(or dont in Sarahs case), enjoy, and tell me what you love or dont love. Im always up for new song suggestions!

    1) Who I am- Jessica Andrews

    2) On Top of the World- Imagine Dragons

    3) Cowboy Take Me Away- Dixie Chick
    4) Die Young- Kesha

    5) American Heart- Faith Hill

    6) My Oh My- Tristan Prettyman
    7)Bad For Me- Megan and Liz

    8) Cowgirls Dont Cry- Brooks and Dunn

    9) I Cry- Flo Rida

    10) Oath- Cher Lloyd

    11) Finally Found You- Enrique Iglesias


Thursday, November 1, 2012


Yes, I went trick-or-treating as a senior in high school. Not only did I go trick-or-treating, but so did four of my fellow senior friends. We just wanted that last hurrah! It was weird. I actually felt to old to be out gathering candy. When did we get old?

 I heard on the radio that people don't mind high schoolers going trick-or-treating as long as they didn't bully the younger kids, steal all the candy from the bowls left on the porches, and wore a costume.
My friends and I followed all of these rules!

The last time I will go trick-or-treating as a trick-or-treater was a success.
I got a ton of candy!
I also looked like a nice cousin/sister because I went with my younger sister and cousins.
We even got to check out some hots guys.
Did you see the firefighter in the above picture?