Tuesday, July 30, 2013


"I found someone who knows the original language of the Bible, something I very much doubt you will find at your church, who is able to tell you what the original author meant."
I may be stepping on a lot of toes by writing about this but I felt the need to do so. The above quote was from a guy that I know and he was talking to me. I see how religion can turn people off. It has so many rules, the people are so judgmental,etc. I love having a good religious debate. I find different religious views interesting. God left the bible open to interpretation. Sometimes, it bothers me that God left such an important thing to be interpreted by sinful human beings. The world has so many different religious views because of this. He may have found someone that agrees with his views but unless God specifically came down and said, "Let me clear up the confusion and tell you exactly what I meant." I do not believe anybody has a right to make that claim. I think he should have said, "Who is able to tell you what he believes the original author meant." My statement above explains why I believe that is the way to go.

Do I believe that a Catholic, Baptist, Lutheran,etc are going to hell because they have different views from mine? No. I believe that we have a fair and just God. A God that left the bible up to interruption for a reason. As long as they believe that Christ is their savior and died on the cross for their sins then I can respect whatever else they believe in regarding the bible.

I'm sure a lot of the things I believe in are not accurate. I do not believe that one religion/denomination has it all figured out. I find no problem discussing different views and opinions because you never know what you might learn. I do have a problem when people with different views bashing each other.
God never intended for his people to turn against each other in a hateful way all in the name of religion.

I had a debate with a guy sometime in May that turned out really ugly. I'm not saying I am innocent(I may have called him an asshole) but the way he went about sharing his opinion was ridiculous. He bashed me the entire time. We ended that debate and a few days ago he randomly started it up again. I clearly said I wanted nothing to do with it but he kept on being an asshole(at this point it is an appropriate term for him) about it. If I wasn't a christian and I was debating him, I wouldn't have even looked into his views because I would not want to be anything like him.

Some of my favorite quotes from him are:

"I don't want to get into how foolish your "heart" is or your feelings.. but they aren't exactly something I would be trusting or putting any level of faith into."
"Oh that's fine, just thought you might be interested in some cold hard truth."
 "There is truth and there is lie or not truth in that respect I believe you to be closer to a Buddhist in many ways."
"I just figured it might help you clear up your apparent confusion at some pretty simple things."
My favorite one was when he called me a Buddhist! Last time I checked our religious views were not that different. He's Lutheran and I go to a non-denomination church.

How do I feel about people with completely different religious? Intrigued. Maybe, the Buddhists or Muslims are right. If not, I'm glad that we have the freedom to share our beliefs in a kind and gentle way. I may not always be good at sharing my views but I never mean to degrade someone.

One of my favorite quotes says, "I would rather live my life as if there is a God and die to find out there isn't, than to live my life if there isn't, and to find out there is."

I am a tattoo'd, non-speed limit following, homework copying, quick to anger, sinner. In other words I sin every day but I believe I am going to heaven. All sins are the same in Gods eyes and only he can judge me on judgement day. I also believe I will be up their with my Catholic, Lutheran, Baptist, non-denomination believing friends. Maybe, God left the bible open to interpretation so that we could learn to love others that are different then ourselves. If you have opposing views regarding what I just wrote I would love to hear them, as long as it stays friendly!

For my next blog post I plan on talking about politics! They seem to go hand in hand.

Sunday, July 28, 2013


"She is eighteen years old and has graduated high school. She is an adult and she is the person that has to deal with her choices now." -Rae Isable <-- It is a quote that I am very proud of.

When did we get old enough to pull the "I'm an adult" card? It scary to have that ability.

My childhood neighbor/best friend is thinking about getting her own apartment.

My friends are getting married, having kids, or both.

My friends have tattoos.

My friends and I have debt. Yay for college loans.

When did we get old enough to be adults? Some days I just want to rewind time for a little while. I am excited to see what adulthood has to bring, but it is sad that there is no way of returning to your childhood.

Friday, July 26, 2013

The clean-up

I have been telling myself all summer that I need to do deep clean my room. I want to leave to go to college and be able to come home to a clean room. I finally decided that with only two weeks left it was about time I start on this daunting and emotional task. At 3:30am I started filling the trash can and an hour later my room looked like a war zone. It eventually started looking "clean."

There was so much junk on the ground and piled high on my desk was a ton of paper. I love finding things that bring back memories such as old handwritten notes, programs from a past event, acceptance letters to colleges, pictures of friends, and old homework assignments. To someone else they may not mean a lot and could easily be thrown out. Unfortunately, I find even the simplest thing important if it is linked to a moment I cherish. It's hard letting go and moving on but at times it is necessary.

In other news my mother is forcing me to pop pills because of my heart. I would be totally fine with that except, the medication I am on is for old people. How do I know it is for old people? I have seen the commercials and they all feature old people!

This growing up crap is really hard! Not only is it taking an emotion toll but it is also taking a physical one.

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

One less

It still seems unreal that I crossed this off of my bucket list.

Saturday, July 20, 2013

The Tattoo

You can't become old and wise, If you aren't young and reckless.

Will I regret this tattoo one day? Probably. Was it worth it? Yes.

I'll be able to look back on it and remember how I felt at eighteen.
I was young, a bit wild, and free.
I'll remember a time when I didn't have large responsibilities and I had my whole life ahead of me.
The time when I could be a little wreckless and not worry about the consequences.

Eighteen. A time to make mistakes, laugh a lot, and enjoy the life we have been given.

Thursday, July 18, 2013

The Doctor

I hate going to the doctors! I told my mother that I did not need a check-up but low and behold the woman did not listen to me. Apparently, I have a new doctor. I wonder what happened to the old one? I'll have to ask my mother because I want my old doctor back! She is one of those people that makes eye contact for a long time, wants to talk about your "feelings", tries to act like she cares, and talks in a slow and soothing way. I just need someone that's going to tell me I'm healthy and send me on my way.

D: So you have been having heart problems?
Me: Yes, I'm assuming it's just from stress or anxiety.
D: Really? What are you stressed about?
Me: I don't know. Maybe, college and other dumb stuff.
D: College is not dumb! It is a great accomplishment. It comes with a lot of change which can be a scary thing.
Me: Ahuh.
D: What do you do when you get stressed out and your heart hurts?
Me: I ignore it.
D: And does that make it go away.
Me: No.
D: I see. Maybe, you should try to shift your focus when you start getting stressed. If you ever need to talk to someone about it feel free to email me. Stress can lead to serious health conditions and depression.
Me: Okay.
D: Am I stressing you out?
Me: Yes.
D: (laughs) I'll stop and let you go now.

She probably thinks I have autism or something because I hate making eye contact with people for long amounts of time! She would just keep her eyes glued on me. I kept moving my eyes from her forehead to the wall.

Thank goodness I do not have to go back to her for another year. I do not need to talk about my feelings anymore!

Tuesday, July 16, 2013


Today is my birthday! I am turning the big 1-8. It is weird to think that I am leaving my childhood behind and entering into adulthood. I'm not so sure how I feel about it. I don't know if I accomplished everything I wanted to do as a child. My parents have given me a lot of freedom so turning eighteen does not change things regarding that.

Important things I want to remember:
1. I never want to forget what it felt like to be a kid. So many adults forget about it and that leads to crabby adults and hurt kids. Nothing is wrong with letting loose and enjoying life.

2. I want to think of the world as a safe place. I once looked at the world as a place where I could do/be anything. I know there is a lot of evil but I do not want to go into things thinking that bad things will come out of it.

Oh and I got a tattoo. So did three of my friends. You're only young once!

Sunday, July 14, 2013

All grown up

I could never really see how much I changed since the beginning of high school.
Appearance wise, not a lot is different.
The biggest difference between these two pictures is how I felt.
I like the person who I am today, better then who I was back then.
Four years does not seem like a long time, but so much can happen in that time.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Christmas Card

This may be my favorite scene from Gilmore Girls.
I do not understand how people cannot like this show.

*Inside joke below*
Sydney, this video is a very good summary of what our mother-daughter relationship would be like. 
I do not understand why you wouldn't want such an awesome mother!
I even have our Christmas cards ready!

You did not inherit my smile but your boob size is all me!

Monday, July 8, 2013

Family Vacation

 Good ole' family vacations.
Sarah, any idea on where we went?
I just got back from a peaceful mini-vacation with my friend.
The next day I left to go on another mini-vacation with my family.
Going on vacations with friends typically has less fighting.
If it does include fighting that is normally short lived.
They also include not being yelled at for lounging around and watching TV, and I can say/do whatever I please.

Guess what flavor ice cream my sister chose?

Going on vacations with my family means that I don't have to spend my own money!
My father acts like my personal ATM and my mom is actually okay with it.

My parents are also very chatty people.
My mother decided to randomly walk into a real estate office on the island and started a full blown conversation with the realtor.
We are not even in the market to buy a home much less a vacation home!
By the end of that conversation I had learned the realtor's whole life story.

Mackinac Island was gorgeous and I am glad my mom picked this destination.
I got to watch my parents ride a tandem bike.
That memory alone was worth all the time I had to spend with them!

We also heard a tour guide say, "I could be making all of this stuff up and you would just believe me."
That would totally be me.
My sister and I took that to a whole new level with my mom.
A story about Colonel Sanders and Long John Silver meeting at the island was formed.
It doesnt sound funny but I havent laughed that hard in a long time.

It would be awesome if we lived in a world like Mackinac Island.
A place where you can walk, bike, or take a horse to anywhere in the town.
While taking a walk I did see a snowmobile parked in a backyard though.
It sort of ruined the 1800s feel but snowmobiling is right up my alley!

If you haven't gone to Mackinac Island I would recommend it.
If you are planning a family vacation I would highly discourage that.
Unless, you never fight with your family or hate islands.

Saturday, July 6, 2013

Tattoo's and Cats

For some reason my boyfriend is against tattoo's. I have no clue why! He has been trying to convince me not to get one for a long time. His recent attempt went to a whole new ridiculous level. 

Eric: So where do you want to get a tattoo?
Rae: On my side.
Eric: Why do you want it there?
Rae: The only time people will see it will be when I am in a bikini. I will only wear a bikini when my body looks good. So when I am old and the tattoo is wrinkly no one has to see it!
Eric: Your cats will have to see it.
Rae: What?
Eric: I thought you wanted to be the crazy cat lady?
Rae: I do but that does not involve me running around naked with them.
Eric: You never know.

Also, one of my favorite bloggers commented on my tweet about it! That made my day.

Thursday, July 4, 2013

4th of July

My Fourth of July in pictures.
My cousin had a slight crush on my ginger.

Boating on the bay with family and friends is the perfect way to spend the day.
Add in some fireworks, food, and drinks and it is near perfection!
We even made it downtown to watch the firework display.

It also happened to be my mothers birthday.
Happy Birthday!

Tuesday, July 2, 2013


Comes and Goes- Greg Laswell

Bruises- Train

You Get What You Give- New Radicals

Closer- Tegan and Sara

The Freshmen- Boyce Avenue

Safe and Sound- Capital Cities

Twenty Years- Augustana

Strong Enough- Sheryl Crow

Tubthumping- Chumbawamba

One Headlight- The Wallflowers

She's So High- Tal Bachman

Crazy For This Girl- Evan and Jaron

Breakfast at Tiffanys- Deep Blue Something