Wednesday, December 31, 2014


How has another year gone by in a blink of an eye?

If you had told me that 2014 would have gone like this, I don't think I would have believed you. It's been a good year, but it's not what I thought this year would be like.

  • I changed schools, but kept the same major. I decided that graduating with a ton of debt was not worth it and that I wanted to do more with my life in the next three years, besides go to school. So I left Winona State for a technical college and I'm very happy with that decision. I forgot what it's like to have money and I have so much more time on my hands. I'm grateful for my experience at a 4-year college!

  • I went from not having a job in Winona to having three back home. It's been an adjustment learning to balance school, work, and my social life. It's worth it! I'm saving up for a big summer trip and that involves working a lot. I also get to hang out with two adorable 4 year olds a few days a week and it has been great birth control. I'm already annoyed with constantly having to move around car seats. 

  • My relationship/not-relationship with Luke fizzled out at the beginning of 2nd semester. Which was good, because when I came home from college and met Andy. I was definitely not looking for a relationship, but six months later I am really happy. Andy also introduced Victoria and I to his friends who have become our party group.

  • I got the priviledge of having two amazing roommates. Shandell was my roommate during my second semester of freshmen year at Winona. Victoria moved into my parents house with me for our first semester of our sophomore year. These girls are a lot a like, which means I pretty much know what to look for personality wise if I ever need to find another roommate. I had/have so much fun living with those girls! I feel bad for people that have never lived with their best friend. It's a good time!

  • I spent the summer partying, working, and just living life. I got to house sit for two weeks which was a blast, I attended a wedding with Andy, I experienced my first car meet, and got myself in a mess with my friends Dad...and mom. It was an interesting summer to say the least.

  • I had two good semesters of college and I'm well on my way to becoming a nurse. I feel confident in my choice for my major, which is great, because a year ago I was questioning my decision. 

  • My grandmother passed away in December. That was probably the hardest part of the year for me. She was the only grandparent I ever got to meet. She was an amazing grandmother who taught me a lot and I miss her every day. On the bright side, almost all of my extended family came to town for the funeral and I loved being able to see them all!
I'm in Florida ending the year on a fantastic note! I'm sad to see 2014 go, but I'm looking forward to what 2015 will bring!

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Merry Christmas

"Merry Christmas ya filthy animal" that movie quote!

Victoria and I sent out Christmas cards of our own this year with our little family.
If you haven't gotten one it's on its way, I didn't think you would appreciate the humor, your parents would judge hard core, I don't know you personally, or I forgot.

I hope you all have a great holiday season!

Tuesday, December 23, 2014


My lovely Grandmother arranged for a family dinner to occur after her death.
She knew the importance of family and family get togethers seem to occur farther and farther apart as time goes on. So all of her children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren got together to celebrate her life. Which was a great idea, but it was the beginning of a very long weekend.

This family dinner was at a bar/reception hall. 
Bars and our family tend to lead to some good stories.
I just didnt realize that I would become the story at this event.

I managed to get down 10 drinks without even realizing it.
My mother thinks I have reached alcoholic status.
I was buzzed when I left the bar with Julie, Gina, and my sister.
I handed over my keys to Julie while I managed to find a bottle of alcohol in my car.

(R to L: Me, Gina, and Julie)
Gina, my cousin who is 31 and still parties like a rock star, wanted to stop by a bar on the way back, but Julie put the kabosh on that idea.
Instead, we headed straight to my Aunt Karen's(Gina's mom) house.
A little back story on my aunt: Love her to death, but she loves order, cleanliness, and perfection. Gina is very much the black sheep of her family.

They took my alcohol away when I managed to get mud on my Aunt Karen's stairs,
Gina tried to get me to drink water, but I kept dropping the cup.
So I managed to break two plastic cups and get mud on the carpet of my Aunt's steps.

The night just got better when my Aunt Karen, Aunt Kathy, Uncle Leon, and Uncle Dan showed up at the house. Apparently, I was the entertainment for the night and I was hilarious.
Any good girl reputation that I had built up over the years was ruined in a single night.
Surprisingly, my aunt just laughed off the mess I made and made Gina clean it up.
I'm sure Gina was just glad that she finally had someone to make her look less bad.

Gina and Julie brought me home and was welcome by my roommate in a robe.
I insisted on multiple group hugs and they finally left me dead on my bed with an advil and a bottle of water on the night stand. 

The next morning was my Grandmother's funeral. 
I'm pretty sure I was still drunk for the majority of it.
I was sure the hot topic that morning and I'd like to believe that I added some comedy to what otherwise would have been a sad day.
On Sunday morning, our hot water heater went out and we were forced to find an alternative.
Victoria attempted to take a cold shower, but failed.
I texted Andy and told him that we were coming over to take a shower.
Victoria went in her robe and I went in my pajamas.
We arrived and Andy wasn't home....his mom was.
She laughed at us and let us use the shower.

That night I dragged Julie to dinner at our cousin Cody's apartment.
Dinner turned into a party.
I was a little worried that she wouldn't like our friend group, but I think she did okay.
She went from not wanting to drink to downing a few shots.

Sarah even called me out of the blue and ended up joining us!
Everything was going fine, until Victoria drank a little too much and got in a fight with a guy she was a very complicated relationship with.
I flipped a lid when I heard what happened and cussed Connor out.
I was pretty sober, but I don't even remember what I said to him, because I was so pissed off.
Victoria was a mess and it was time to go.

We went to drop Julie off and Victoria insisted she had to puke.
Guess where Julie was spending the night?!
My Aunt Karens!!
I physically had to prevent Victoria from puking in my Aunt's drive-way.
We then drove a block and she had to puke again.
I didn't care about who's yard she was puking in that time.

That was the first time I have ever seen Victoria puke after drinking.
I have never gotten drunk at a family event.
My poor cousins from out of state probably think we are alcoholics.
What a perfect weekend for the Rae and Victoria shit show to come to town.
Thank goodness that Julie loved Victoria and she has to love me.

I'm sure my Grandmother was proud...

Saturday, December 20, 2014

My Grandmother

My Grandmother passed away on December 15. She had been suffering from Alzheimer's for almost two decades. About a week before her death she went into kidney failure, because of the Alzheimer's. She was surrounded by family 24/7 that entire week before she passed away. I loved seeing my family come together like that for our matriarch. She was the only grandparent of mine that I got to meet. She impacted me in ways that she will never know. She was kind and loving, but a little spitfire at the same time. I loved hearing all of the stories about how she impacted someones life or a cute story about something she did. 
I'm proud to call her my grandmother.
I can only hope that I become half the woman/wife/mother/friend/daughter/grandmother that she was.
I know you're having a blast in heaven.

Monday, December 8, 2014

Beyonce and Jay Z

My life has been so hectic this semester, but I've loved every minute of it!
Everything just feels in place in my life and it's a great feeling.

Last week I went to the Children's Museum with Sam. 
She was the cutest firefighter I've ever seen!

I bought Boot's new Christmas pajamas!
He outgrew (He packed on a few pounds) his old pajamas and it was time for some new ones.
Isn't he adorable!

I also complained about how my mom never gave us St.Nick presents. 
I came home to this....
She didn't have enough stockings for Victoria, but a bag was a good substitute!
We got coal (candy meant to look like coal).
Thanks mom!

Andy's mom is on vacation and he had a huge party on Saturday night. I got to be the designated driver that night, but I still had fun. I really like the girlfriends of Andy's friends and spent the majority of the time hanging with them. They weren't drinking either so we were in the same boat. 

This is Andy coming to my rescue.
My stuff was in this room, but it was preoccupied.
He thought I was kidding until he started eavesdropping...
He failed at his rescue attempt.

Poor Selner was having a rough night and decided to drink his problems away.
Unfortunately, his girl troubles seemed to get worse the more he drank.
Go figure.

This is the address of the house Beyonce and Jay Z are in a bidding war over.
It's only on the market for 85 million!
So if you're ever in Beverly Hills you can be all stalkerish.
You're welcome,

Saturday, December 6, 2014


I am one of the most awkward people at family events. You would think, that after 19 years of these people being in my life, I would have finally gotten my shit together and learned how to carry on a conversation with them. I'm still in the "smile(or fake laugh) and nod" phase. Family means a lot to me though. I desperately want a good relationship with my extended family, but I really struggle with it. That's why I'm so glad for the family that I was not born into, but that I chose. 
Knowing that a person was not obligated to interact with you, but instead chose you to be in their life is an amazing feeling. 
I always wanted a big family and I'm finally realizing that I do have one.
And to end on a none sappy note...

Family is forever. So you're stuck with me for the rest of your lives, bitches!